Feb 24, 2019

A different faith




There was no way I could school my child. It's like saying, enslaving her knowingly... although freeing her from the beginning, was painful.

The hardest system that I had to overcome in my life has been the schooled judicial system inside me called "justice", which the social construct still holds dear although it is life-threatening. 

It's been an uphill road to self-liberation but the opposite would be to remain strapped, unable to fly freely.

Feb 14, 2019

Daring to look


One more story…
One more actual, factual description… 

You spent more than an hour telling me how you built your house. I listened bewildered, unable to take in lightly everything that you were telling me out of your memory and your heart. My heart was telling me “it can’t be true” and yet I knew that it was. I just couldn’t believe (or didn’t want to believe) all that I was hearing; all the details, with names, dates, incidents that painted a bloody picture of reality, so common that it’s frightening to realize. My psyche was refusing to internalize it all, especially not as something “normal” that happens everyday in every area of this country, which it is happening!

Dec 16, 2018

The undeniable truth which concerns us all


This is a heavily sick society and failing civilization, already in deep decline, where it seems nearly impossible to prove you're not an elephant.  

In a more mature society of spiritual people and higher morality, what we did with my child would be an area of study and respect. We would be in an open dialogue with all areas of expertise, all bodies of social structure concerned, about our findings through learning and growing outside the only allowed, failing school system in the country. Our experiences, through research, experimentation and sharing with others world-wide, would be supported and also aided for the good of all. We would all be working together to change the existing, failed educational system, each providing their expertise, knowledge, experiences, findings, which would serve social (true) justice, would enhance and promote (true) civilization, based on higher values that would be child-supportive and learning-enhancing. 

A vision still holding...

Dec 8, 2018

Non-caring?



When people who have known the case from the beginning have only just signed the petition or not yet.

When people who care about you have stopped asking you how you’re feeling and how you’re holding on.

When those that it likewise affects have shied away from commenting, discussing that which they too experience in their daily lives and know to be true.

When those who are your friends fear to share on their timelines or pretend they don't know you, to protect their profiles and identities.

Dec 2, 2018

To my son


I know that you're worried about that English exam that you're supposed to take. I know that you're meant to "re-examine" yourself, fix yourself, continuously doubt yourself. And so much more than the education system and society teach, subliminally but effectively, succeeding most of the time. 

But I have something different to tell you...these thoughts came to my mind and they belong to you as well as to any young person that stumbles across them.

Nov 20, 2018

Memories from the future



Two thousand years later, we are still trying to understand the story of Jesus... and many more stories told and passed down through the ages.

Everyone has a different story to tell, which suits each person's already established opinions, beliefs, egoic needs. Can we even know anything at the time of happening? Is there a way?

It's not easy to look into the eyes of innocence and truth when you've already condemned and convicted a mother and child. So, you don't call them to court, you don't have to know their story, you don't need real witnesses and real events. You can and do convict without them.

Aug 22, 2018

Under the surface



The pain is unimaginable, immeasurable.

Finding other things to do doesn’t make it go away. It doesn’t lighten it. There is no way I can be who I was before or what people might expect of me. Physical pain, in any form gives me the impression of being alive, the strength to go on, the reminder that I am here. It’s visible, more manageable, an indication of movement in the stagnancy that has been forced on me.

I am also discovering the misconception we have believed of pain, the body, the heart-mind, ego-mind, truth and so much more, much deeper than linear, surface level... through experience.